*poem written as a prompt from L.C.
i carry oversized gift bags on the bus
and hang torn earphones from my neck.
chin stuck to ice smudged windows,
i hum of make-believe merriment
and rip price tags smoothly.
i fold myself in silk ribbons
and curl my yore in matching jumpers
i paint my face in red and green
and break two fingers flattening pink wish cards.
i crunch on gingerbread
and choke on warmth at noon.
i eat cold pizza and squint at christmas rom-coms in the mornings
i munch on burnt popcorn and adorn plastic trees at midnights,
i watch friends unwrap my presents and rest my forehead on their shoulders
how did you know?
they kiss my hair
this is the best gift i’ve ever got
i fly home
i cry on the plane
i smile at my mother
i crumble in my room
i am insomniac and slippery
but i try.