in the depths of betrayal,
do not, under any circumstance,
seal your heart.
for years, you intricately
pushed yourself to unglue it.
to forfeit that effort
is to lose the rawness of God
tasting herself in you
as both the flutter in your womb
and as the pain in your left lung.
to seal my heart
is to deprive myself of God.
in this life,
there is much i have allowed.
but this,
this, i will not allow.
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~ note to myself. 🖤
amaryllis 